or you." It was an explanation, Devin noted, but not an apology.
"Forgive me," he said, with exaggerated contrition. "I must talk with Menico, it seems we aren't paying you enough, in addition to all our other transgressions. You must be used to better things."
She hesitated for the first time. "Must we discuss this in the middle of Tannery Lane?" she said.
Without a word Devin sketched a performance bow and gestured for her to lead the way. She started walking away from the harbor and he fell in stride beside her. They were silent for several minutes, until out of the range of the tannery smells. With a faint sigh Catriana put away her handkerchief.
"Where are you taking me?" Devin asked.
Another transgression, it seemed. The blue eyes flashed with anger.
"In the name of the Triad where would I be taking you?" Catriana's voice dripped with sarcasm. "We are going to my room at the inn for a session of love-making like Eanna and Adaon at the dawn of days."
"Oh, good," Devin snapped, his own anger rekindling. "Why don't we pool our funds and buy another woman to come play Morian, just so I don't get bored, you understand."
Catriana paled, but before she could open her mouth Devin grabbed her arm with his free hand and swung her around to face him in the street. Looking up into those blue eyes (and cursing the fact that he had to do that) he snapped:
"Catriana, what exactly have I done to you? Why do I deserve that sort of answer? Or what you did this morning? I've been pleasant to you from the day we signed you on, and if you're a professional you know that isn't always the case in troupes on the road. If you must know, Marra, the woman you replaced, was my closest friend in the company. She died of the plague in Certando. I could have made life very hard for you. I didn't and I'm not. I did let you know from the first that I found you attractive. I'm not aware that there is a sin in that if it is done with courtesy."
He released her arm, abruptly conscious that he had been gripping it very hard and that they were in an extremely public place, even with the early-afternoon lull. Instinctively he looked around; thankfully there were no Barbadians passing just then. There was a familiar tight feeling in his chest, as of the apprehended return of pain, that always came with the thought of Marra. The first true friend of his life. Two neglected children, with voices that were gifts of Eanna, telling each other fears and dreams for three years in changing beds across the Palm at night. His first lover. First death.
Catriana, released, remained where she was, and there was a look in her own eyes, perhaps at the naming of death, that made him abruptly revise his estimate of her age downwards. He'd thought she was older than him; now he wasn't sure.
He waited, breathing quickly after his outburst, and at length he heard her say very softly, "You sing too well."
Devin blinked. It was not at all what he'd expected.※※
"I have to work very hard at performing," she went on, her face flushing for the first time. "Rauder is hard for me, all of his music. And this morning you were doing the 'Song of Love' without even thinking about it, amusing the others, trying to charm me ... Devin, I have to concentrate when I sing! You were making me nervous and I snap at people when I'm nervous."
Devin drew a careful breath and looked around the empty sunlit street for a moment, thinking. He said, "Do you know . . . has anyone ever told you . . . that it is possible and even useful to tell things like this to people, especially the people who have to work with you?"
She shook her head. "Not for me. I've never been able to talk like that, not ever."
"Why do it now, then?" he risked. "Why did you come after me?"
A longer pause than before. A cluster of artisans' apprentices swept around the corner, hooting with reflexive ribaldry at the sight of the two of them standing together. There was no malice in it though, and they went by without cau